How do I cope with undermining thoughts and destructive behavior just now that I experience deeper love and connection in meditations?

A: Dear one, thank you for being so honest towards yourself to really see the duality within yourself. Like waves following a different stream and collapsing with each other. And remember that these waves are water and that in the end water will always follow the flow and come into unity. 

Water will not have any thought about what is right or what is wrong. It just follows the flow and will find on its path whatever appears. No thoughts about it. And of course it is interesting that most people have so many thoughts about what appears in their consciousness. 

It is a universal law in a world of duality that, wherever there is more light, there will be more darkness too. And we know that you know that the way to transcend the duality is to higher your frequency in general. 

So, the challenges that you face with the forces that undermine you to really live your truth, to really live your essence, are in your life to wake you up. To make you aware. Maybe you will notice that in the old days you wouldn’t even have recognized those forces. You might not even have been aware of them. Now they become very clear; in your face, we could say. And that is because those forces are here to wake you up and to challenge you to stand in your true power. Because with every step you take towards your own essence, your own true power, you will feel stronger. 

It is like the butterfly coming out of the cocoon. It needs to struggle to strengthen her wings. And that is the same for you. It is necessary to strengthen your wings in the duality that you face. And within that process you will begin to live your own truth, to face the challenges on your path. And above all you will be aware when you are brought out of balance. The moment you feel that… be aware. It is the moment to choose and to step back into a higher frequency. It is like training your muscles. And we know it is not easy and we know you have heard this before.

And know that we are the ones that can help you with it. So, whenever you are in meditation, ask our help to be strong. Ask our help to bring people or situations on your path that support your higher frequency living, that bring wind beneath your wings. 

Every choice you make will have an outcome. So, the choices you make will lead to an end result of duality or of unity. Whenever you feel undermined by shadow forces in yourself and you are aware of this, you might need some willpower to say ‘no no we don’t go there’. 

I AM in charge. I AM the leader of my own life and all the old patterns and all the undermining contracts that influence me, I will no longer tolerate in my life. 

You can ask archangel Michael to use his sword of diamond light to cut through all the cords that keep you bound to any lower frequencies that you no longer need. 

Start your day every morning with the connection to your soul, your heart and the connection to your guardian angel. Ask your guardian angel to hold the light for you, in you and around you. Your guardian angel’s mission is to help you with this. You don’t need to do it alone but you need to ask.

During the day, take your moments to be aware of the light within you; your connection to Mother Earth; your connection to Source; your connection to your I AM power, your soul. 

Train the muscle and you will notice that you get really strong in your own light. 

And that is the challenge of these days, exactly that. So thank you for being aware and your beautiful question.